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Monday, April 29, 2013

Making Time

By last Thursday I was pouting because there hadn’t been much time in the week for anything remotely creative. I told my husband I was simply tired of being responsible and doing all those adult activities that kept me from playing. To be honest, I didn’t get a lot of sympathy; he laughed. He did joke me out of my crabbiness though. And then I sat at my sewing machine for a few hours and felt balance being restored.

Yesterday I had another pouting/ranting session and this time my hubby cajoled me into taking a walk. I guess he figured I would either talk myself silly about what was frustrating me and eventually bore even myself with the topic, or, I would be so breathless walking and ranting that eventually I would cease and desist. 

Well, between the good company, the beautiful sunshine and his help in arriving at a solution to the issue sending me round the crazy bend, it worked. I arrived home a more relaxed, calmer individual. Thank goodness. That kind of mental state is just not productive. Or pretty.

There have been times in my life when I wondered if I would ever have another original creative thought again; if I would ever come up with another design, idea, thing that I just had to create. A small hiatus from a demanding, all consuming job showed me that physical and mental fatigue definitely served as the firewall to my creativity. But then I found I couldn’t sleep because I had so many ideas popping into my head, most between the hours of 1 and 5 am.

My son works in a demanding, all consuming job. He is a talented self taught musician and has a lovely refreshing drawing style. He is wisely starting to prioritize and find time again for creating and playing music and to also find some spare minutes to draw. I love when my computer or phone pings to indicate he has emailed me another drawing. This is usually in the wee hours as well - maybe the quiet hours are the most creative for this family?

He and I are collaborating on a project or two and one of the sources of my frustration is that I just haven’t had a pocket of time recently that would allow me to make some major headway. And the time I have gotten to work on it has been fraught with taking big......sliding....steps.....backwards. Sigh. 

I did eventually make some headway and I am committed to carving out some hours in the days ahead to devote to the next steps.






8 comments:

  1. Oh, I kind of know the feeling! For me though, I actually have the time, I'm just too fatigued to do anything, but my brain is full. It's very frustrating. It helps to have a sketchbook to at least get the ideas down.
    We have to learn to accept.

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  2. This looks interesting, did your son draw the owl? And then is it screenprinted onto fabric? I think your husband had the right idea. Sometimes you just need to step away for a bit and do some exercise, it helps with creativity. I just finished a major show, and I thought I would want a break now from sewing, but the opposite happened! Being around all those creative women only inspired me to want to do more!

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  3. It's good to rant from time to time. I do that too. I have plenty of time but I find that I don't use it very well at all. My mind is always churning with things I want to do.

    Your owl is wonderful! I love his wing and the border is perfect.

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  4. I hear you, Holly! I have suffered from chronic pain for over 30 years now and I find the spirit is often willing, but the energy just isn’t there. I try to work through it, but it does get frustrating. I also have sketchbooks and moleskins packed with ideas and drawings and notes to myself. Then I have a huge morgue of inspirational material and a whole satchel of kids drawings to translate to fiber! Oh my. Guess we just having to keep pluggin’ away, eh?

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  5. Hi Jeanette,

    Yes, my son did draw the owl and then I printed it on fabric with my ink jet printer. And I hate to admit just how often my husband is right....lol...some days I am amazed he puts up with me and my moods. I tell him that is the price he pays for marrying an artsy-fartsy.
    Hope you did well at the show! My daughter, who is a student at Dal dropped into the last one and enjoyed seeing all the vendors.

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  6. I am so glad I am not the only one who rants, Linda! haha Sometimes I just have to get things out of my system and it is usually better if I am home alone when that happens, to be honest!
    The owl is a drawing of my son’s and I printed it on fabric using my ink jet printer. I have 2 others in the works and hope to make them all up into pillows for him by next week. Now to find the perfect outside border treatment! I think I will keep it simple - he seems to prefer a more modern, contemporary treatment.

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  7. Sharron ThreadpainterMay 1, 2013 at 7:47 PM

    Hi, I'm visiting for the first time and I love your rant !
    In reading your replies, I suddenly realized that my own chronic pain is the reason that I procrastinate, too tired to work and frustration builds. I have had pain so long that I know no other feeling ... it is nice to know that I am not alone !

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  8. Welcome to my world of rants and the odd bit of creativity, Sharron! Life with chronic pain is certainly not for the feint of heart. haha I try really hard to not always use it as an excuse for not doing something, starting something, being enthusiastic about a project or an activity, but my reality is that it often takes a toll on me and I need to pace myself. When I don’t, I pay a price. I think fatigue is the biggest obstacle.
    Thanks for visiting! And trust me, there will be more rants! I am a black and white kinda girl and this world seems to have an awful lot of gray out there....

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